My Self Discovery Offline

I am an honest soul, probably more honest then most men are. Since being without the internet at home and only migrating to the library once or twice a day to gather mail, the odd tweet or quick blog posting; I have accomplished so much more for my health and family then I could imagine.

What Do I Mean By This?

I do keep a clean home, but not as clean as I really wanted it to be. Tony and I are perfectionists in regards to how our home appears. We also want our daughter to grow up realizing how important being clean really is. I was neglecting larger projects like ovens, fridges and cupboards.

I accomplished so much being offline like I have been. I also focused on writing, as well as other messages I received for prophecy or what I call teaching others about God’s will for certain matters.

I have been spending a great deal of time outside walking, enjoying the Canadian Geese before they fly south, and daydreaming of the Harvest and fall season ahead. I also had some time to digest some personal matters of the heart and reflect on lessons learned, forgiveness, and unusual but still passionate ways of loving others and enduring mountains to be moved to have portions of dreams fulfilled. I am a strong believer of dreams fulfilled, even if only sections of them. I have never been greedy about dreams, nor should I feel that dreams should be pressured to have the entirety of them happen. Bits of happiness is better then none. However a coolness rested over my shoulders like a shawl while having these personal thoughts. I felt the Lord moving me to coolness for a period of time.

What Advice Can I Give Others About This Special Time I Had?

I spoke to my common law spouse about how great I felt being offline and how much I accomplished both physically, emotionally and spiritually, that I have asked him to take the wylan card from me 2-3 times a week to focus entirely on all the matters I mentioned above. I figured Mondays and Fridays would be an appropriate days. A nice way to start and end the week before the weekend comes. I strongly urge you to do what is necessary to obtain peace offline if temptations of internet use are too powerful to combat. I am a huge people person. I love people, and I love to socialize. This became a bit of a downfall in my use of it.

May God bless your time to be spent wisely and more efficiently in matters of home, life, love, family and inner reflections of the heart.

Closer to God

Warning: Fowl language in the video

Why am I discussing this video?

It has spiritual connections to the bible which I am about to explain.

What is this video implying?

In many cases men who are unbelievers or beginning some sort of personal changes, find themselves drawn to whom God calls the proverbs 31 woman. It is not only scriptural it happens very often. They catch a reflection of God in her. This can also occur with women desiring men of God.

Does this video offend me?

Not in the least. I enjoy this particular song by Nine Inch Nails and listen to it often. God looks at the heart of man as the bible clearly tells us. This man in this video sees God in this woman. I just do not tweet the song out because some might take it the wrong way due to the language. However the man singing the song is enduring some sort of personal changes with words such as "help me". It is what I call the dark night of the soul. The dark night of the soul is a reflection of your own sins before the big change of becoming Christian occurs. Notice he says you can not help me with my absence of faith? However at the same time is claiming that she brings him closer to God.

Dark Night of the Soul Material to Read

Wiki

The Dark Night of the Soul is the Gift of Illumination in Higher Consciousness

May God bless you for your own illumination and endurance through your own dark night of the soul experience.

Praying for Release

I am at the point of collapsing from a prophetic experience that has lasted about two months, it is effecting my sleeping and eating. Between bits of prophetic messages, dreams and discernment of a particular individual for two months, I am growing quite weary from the late nights. I am so tired.

Tonight I collapse into my bed early, and pray for release from my desires and passions....living intensely and by emotions has his hardships.

Silently I Weep

Silently I weep for some sort of closure prophetically or some sort of conversation of explainations and apologies while I stood outside wearing my common laws large baggy t shirt, no undies, hidden in the dark and in the breeze. Wind touching my skin and moving through my hair...

Living With Rheumatoid VS Letting It Destroy You

My friends and family know the extent of my condition, and I thought to discuss my feelings quite openly now that I have some privacy from a few that I really wish would move on, and one that is not understanding my needs.

My rheumatoid is progressing quite rapidly. My bladder and kidneys are in overdrive. Part of rheumatoid is a breaking down on tissues on the kidneys and liver. I am quite shocked at how fast this is progressing, but trying to live with it instead of letting it destroy me emotionally.

I try to remain as active as it allows, by walking, swimming and pursuing other forms of fitness.

My joints are so sore, that at times I am having time with my mobility for long periods or extended periods of time. I find hot baths or soaks help with the pain, also a quick stretch around the block.

This is not effecting my sex life, or even my desires what so ever, nor is effecting Tony's desires for me. We compensate in certain areas to help with this. We still find our love making very passionate and enjoyable.

I will be seeking further advice from the rheumatologist about a proper diet, because apparently food can have a huge impact on comfort for the disease and help with some healing. I also need to cut back on coffee since it is a diarectic (not sure if that is even spelled correctly) and at this time I do not require anything more to send me to the washroom. (smile)

I am trying very hard to add as many prophecies on this blog. I will be adding a separate button at the top called prophecy that will lead you to all prophetic postings.

I can see I am gaining views and hope this increases over the coming weeks. I will be adding a few trends periodically to increase the readership, so they can receive prophecy at the same time.