My Self Discovery Offline

I am an honest soul, probably more honest then most men are. Since being without the internet at home and only migrating to the library once or twice a day to gather mail, the odd tweet or quick blog posting; I have accomplished so much more for my health and family then I could imagine.

What Do I Mean By This?

I do keep a clean home, but not as clean as I really wanted it to be. Tony and I are perfectionists in regards to how our home appears. We also want our daughter to grow up realizing how important being clean really is. I was neglecting larger projects like ovens, fridges and cupboards.

I accomplished so much being offline like I have been. I also focused on writing, as well as other messages I received for prophecy or what I call teaching others about God’s will for certain matters.

I have been spending a great deal of time outside walking, enjoying the Canadian Geese before they fly south, and daydreaming of the Harvest and fall season ahead. I also had some time to digest some personal matters of the heart and reflect on lessons learned, forgiveness, and unusual but still passionate ways of loving others and enduring mountains to be moved to have portions of dreams fulfilled. I am a strong believer of dreams fulfilled, even if only sections of them. I have never been greedy about dreams, nor should I feel that dreams should be pressured to have the entirety of them happen. Bits of happiness is better then none. However a coolness rested over my shoulders like a shawl while having these personal thoughts. I felt the Lord moving me to coolness for a period of time.

What Advice Can I Give Others About This Special Time I Had?

I spoke to my common law spouse about how great I felt being offline and how much I accomplished both physically, emotionally and spiritually, that I have asked him to take the wylan card from me 2-3 times a week to focus entirely on all the matters I mentioned above. I figured Mondays and Fridays would be an appropriate days. A nice way to start and end the week before the weekend comes. I strongly urge you to do what is necessary to obtain peace offline if temptations of internet use are too powerful to combat. I am a huge people person. I love people, and I love to socialize. This became a bit of a downfall in my use of it.

May God bless your time to be spent wisely and more efficiently in matters of home, life, love, family and inner reflections of the heart.

Pushing Ones Limits Of The Soul

Why does man push one to their limits of experiencing pain, grief and anger when they know this will be the result of these activities? They will pursue your heart, mind and soul relentlessly in a variety of methods, until they affect your health to the point where a doctor needs to be seen.

These individuals feel no sympathy or empathy nor any concern for the people they hurt constantly. Instead of letting them go entirely, they will find methods of deceit to contact them, speak to them, or keeping themselves in that persons life without that persons approval?

What can be done to stop this form of pain?

I have struggled with the answer to this for a few months now. I have not yet found the answer other then relying on prayer, scriptures and God to cease these activities that are causing turmoil in ones life and upsetting natural balance of soul.

My suggestion is to keep yourselves as busy as possible to help curb the thoughts and transgression being brought upon your person. I throw myself into creative pursuits, reading, prayer and prophecy to help me combat these attacks on my privacy to heal or privacy to move on from unworthy soul contacts.

Will one heal from these individuals?

I am bound to believe one will eventually heal from this unnatural form of mild abuse. It is a form of abuse but not highly recognized or spoken about in wide circles. Find comfort and solace with the Lord in prayer.

May God bless you today to take care of another person enduring these trials or hardships inflicted on a gentle heart, mind and spirit.

Closer to God

Warning: Fowl language in the video

Why am I discussing this video?

It has spiritual connections to the bible which I am about to explain.

What is this video implying?

In many cases men who are unbelievers or beginning some sort of personal changes, find themselves drawn to whom God calls the proverbs 31 woman. It is not only scriptural it happens very often. They catch a reflection of God in her. This can also occur with women desiring men of God.

Does this video offend me?

Not in the least. I enjoy this particular song by Nine Inch Nails and listen to it often. God looks at the heart of man as the bible clearly tells us. This man in this video sees God in this woman. I just do not tweet the song out because some might take it the wrong way due to the language. However the man singing the song is enduring some sort of personal changes with words such as "help me". It is what I call the dark night of the soul. The dark night of the soul is a reflection of your own sins before the big change of becoming Christian occurs. Notice he says you can not help me with my absence of faith? However at the same time is claiming that she brings him closer to God.

Dark Night of the Soul Material to Read

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The Dark Night of the Soul is the Gift of Illumination in Higher Consciousness

May God bless you for your own illumination and endurance through your own dark night of the soul experience.

Prophecy Brings Persecution, Loneliness, and Wide Birth

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The gift of prophecy brings many crosses to bare that is very hard to cope with, and at times accept as part as living with this type of powerful gift. Prophecy brings a great deal of persecution from unbelievers claiming I am mentally ill or some other form of abusiveness that can get quite out of control, I do not even want to discuss what I just endured with one woman for a lengthy period of time. Stooping to lie to persecute. The loneliness from the wide birth occurs because most that are delivered from the insights are fearful of saying the wrong thing to a messenger of GOD.


It is a very painful experience.

How Do I Cope

 I try so hard to focus on the reward at the ending that will be given to me. I also enjoy being his spokeswomen very much, and try to find enlightening things to read, do or spend time pursuing to lighten the sadness of the cross I am to bare. I enjoy working on my blogs and embracing my creativity to keep my mind occupied from the sadness. Due to my RA, I do not leave the house for long extensions of time. I find I get uncomfortable. Day trips still occur but I am uncomfortable half way through them, while still embracing those days with my family.

What can you do to help?

If you are delivered, rest assured I am still a human being who makes many mistakes and still struggles with areas of my life with sin. I ask you to come forward and give me the pleasure of your company with comments and friendship. I have limited contacts online, and a few great friendships in person. This becomes part of the package deal of prophecy. Prophets do not gain much of a social life but a limited few. If you feel you can be one of those limited few, I ask you from my heart and spirit to not let anything hold you back from doing so. My life will feel more complete, and more rewarding with you in my life and conversations.

May God bless both me to help endure this hardship I am carrying, and to bless those reading this blog to hold my hand and heart through this experience.

Bondage Living Vs Living With Freedom

Based on my own experience of being happy and satisfied with my personal or public life; I prefer living with freedom vs bondage.

What is the bondage I am speaking of?

Bondage living is not living life with freedom of being yourself with people you spend time with. This indicates a form of shame. Shame and living your entire life secretly is not happiness or fulfillment.  A certain amount of privacy or discretion is entitled but it should not be your entire life ,especially with major life decisions or experiences like marriage, partnerships, love,friendships,employment or children involved.When I think of living in bondage I think of a form of prison, jail, handcuffed or a ball around the ankles in a metaphorical way. Tied to living without truth.

Living in bondage is not living your life in full truth or some form of deceit is involved within your living.


What does living with freedom imply or mean?

Living with freedom means living your life honestly yet passionately in all areas of your life. I find the more honest, forthright and passionate I am in both my public and personal life, the more I am trusted as a friend, lover or family member. I have even been more trusted with reviews, and business related contacts because they see an honest living soul.

Living with freedom is being at peace, comfortable and not ashamed of who you are or embarrassed with the decisions or thoughts of your heart, mind and spirit and who God chose you to be; and not have to hide it from the people around you.

Praying for Release

I am at the point of collapsing from a prophetic experience that has lasted about two months, it is effecting my sleeping and eating. Between bits of prophetic messages, dreams and discernment of a particular individual for two months, I am growing quite weary from the late nights. I am so tired.

Tonight I collapse into my bed early, and pray for release from my desires and passions....living intensely and by emotions has his hardships.

Silently I Weep

Silently I weep for some sort of closure prophetically or some sort of conversation of explainations and apologies while I stood outside wearing my common laws large baggy t shirt, no undies, hidden in the dark and in the breeze. Wind touching my skin and moving through my hair...

Living With Rheumatoid VS Letting It Destroy You

My friends and family know the extent of my condition, and I thought to discuss my feelings quite openly now that I have some privacy from a few that I really wish would move on, and one that is not understanding my needs.

My rheumatoid is progressing quite rapidly. My bladder and kidneys are in overdrive. Part of rheumatoid is a breaking down on tissues on the kidneys and liver. I am quite shocked at how fast this is progressing, but trying to live with it instead of letting it destroy me emotionally.

I try to remain as active as it allows, by walking, swimming and pursuing other forms of fitness.

My joints are so sore, that at times I am having time with my mobility for long periods or extended periods of time. I find hot baths or soaks help with the pain, also a quick stretch around the block.

This is not effecting my sex life, or even my desires what so ever, nor is effecting Tony's desires for me. We compensate in certain areas to help with this. We still find our love making very passionate and enjoyable.

I will be seeking further advice from the rheumatologist about a proper diet, because apparently food can have a huge impact on comfort for the disease and help with some healing. I also need to cut back on coffee since it is a diarectic (not sure if that is even spelled correctly) and at this time I do not require anything more to send me to the washroom. (smile)

I am trying very hard to add as many prophecies on this blog. I will be adding a separate button at the top called prophecy that will lead you to all prophetic postings.

I can see I am gaining views and hope this increases over the coming weeks. I will be adding a few trends periodically to increase the readership, so they can receive prophecy at the same time.